Gemini God Lyrics

Sad Boy

What goes comes around, it’s my karma comedown. Walking higher ground wears my shoes way down. You think I’m ace of spades, I’m just a waste of space and I’m broken inside, broken inside. I don’t need anything, just want to be someone. Narcissistic motherfucker need it like a drug. Turn me inside out and then you’ll find out.

I’m just a sad boy singing, in a mad world feeling like I can be the reason and give you something to believe in.

And then you see me living on the other side, on the other side, on the other side. Then you see the way I choose to live my life, an empathetic mother fucking suicide. Do you see my other mind, who the hell am I? Turn me inside out and then you’ll find out.

1918

Take it on the chin like a big boy, turn the other cheek like Jesus said. I hang on the weight of your breath, take it all away, take it all away if you can.

Because it all happened in 1918, you took my mind and replaced it with a day dream. Oh oh, you didn’t want me. Oh oh, you didn’t need me.

I’ve got a burning desire, fanning flames getting higher, adding fuel to my fire. You see I’m broken and bruised and sick of the abuse and now I’m fucking over you. Cuz underneath this misery, I’m actually quite happy to be free. Honestly, your honesty as all I need, all I need.

I want to hear you say that you were wrong, all along. And now, you’re nothing more to me. Nothing more than a god damned liar.

Because it all happened in 1918, you took my mind and replaced it with a day dream. Oh oh, you didn’t want me. Oh oh, you didn’t need me. Because it all happened in 1918, you took my heart and you filled it back with concrete. Oh oh, you didn’t want me. Oh oh, you didn’t need me.

Boys Do Cry

I don’t know why I say the things I do. I don’t know why I try and hide the truth. But I hope to god that I mean them too. Cuz I know I don’t make this easy on you.

And now I’m cleaning out the closet in more than one way, in more than one way. And I watch you walk away through the window pane, wishing you could stay. And I won’t lie, boys do cry and baby I’m the same. And I hope with time that my tears dry and everything will change.

I’m thinking if I go, then I’ll end up alone. I’m wondering if I stay will I always feel this way. You’re clinging to a frayed rope with me as the weight. Or will we just bend and bend and bend and never break.

You can watch me break with every step you take. Now oh my god, I’m lost in this headspace. When you walk away, I’ll put on my brave face, I’ll put on my brave face.

If You Need

I remember when a storm broke down your tree. In the middle of the night, you went and planted a seed. You said the earth needs me just like you and I, we need to breathe. And you taught me how to give without needing to receive. So I poured out my heart to a page I never meant to fill. In a tear covered book laying on your windowsill. It said for you I’d bleed, because you are all I need. And if someones gotta leave then god will be meeting me.

I said if you need my heart then I will give it to you. If you need my lungs then you can take them too. Take any part of me, any part you need, turn me blue. Cuz when my heart stops beating, that’s the only way I’m leaving you.

I remember when I first caught sight of your eyes. How the shadows held you and the lightning split the sky. And I knew that you would love me til the end. And my heart can’t take it if I never see you again.

No matter what it takes, I’ll wait it out. I can’t forget the taste, can’t forget the sound. You put me in your arms and gave me truth. Now anything I have, I’d give for you.

Silence Is Broken

Some say silence is golden, but I say silence is broken, broken cuz the truth is hiding in plain sight. Do you see my afflictions? Do you feed my addictions? Cuz I fear that I’m running for my life.

You just see my smiling teeth but don’t quite see what’s underneath. You believe my broken bones but not my mind when I’m all alone. I don’t know what else to say, I don’t think that this will go away. And now my life’s a mess, buried in the silence.

We keep making excuses, wasting time and now it’s useless. So tell me what are we waiting for? Don’t you know time is borrowed, we’re not guaranteed tomorrow, so tell me when will we draw the line?

I’m sick of being sick and I’m tired of being tired.

Retrograde

And I know I’ve sinned in the same ways that my father did. And I know he’s sinned, just like his father before him. But I grew up watching that man in the mirror. I’d follow in his footsteps just to try and be nearer. We’re not ones for touch but I know how much he loves my mother.

I used to watch the way he’d hold her hand and maybe one day I will understand on my own now. How to stand on my own now. And I’m so proud of everything that I know, you taught me how to live and grow, you’re the only way I know how. The only way I know how.

And underneath, you and me we’re not much different. We both bleed, we both need to be forgiven. We do the best we can with the hands that we’re given. And we try to make things right for the lives of our women.

Gemini God

Instrumental

AMENDS

When the nightmares come just stay awake, just stay awake. But I like when mine are here to stay, here to stay. And I don’t mind, if they last me the whole night. Because they say that I’m alive.

Oh, I’m halfway dead, the bottom of the bottle is my new best friend. Are you listening? The devil’s in the details of my flesh. I can’t leave my bed, I’m broken by the words in my head. That’s when you said that my demons aren’t here to make amends.

And I consider myself lucky. Because I never ever said goodbye, said goodbye. To the feelings of lost and nothing and I don’t mind, I don’t mind.

I’m a no-name Kurt Cobain minus the drugs rushing through my veins. My lungs are inflamed, my ribs form the cage where my demons will stay. I’m a no-name Kurt Cobain minus the gun up against my brain. My lungs are inflamed and my ribs form the cage where my demons will stay. Oh my demons aren’t here to make amends.

Wooden Door

Bowed head and wide eyed to the colours of the morning light, streaming in. Sit in silence, drinking blood and breaking bread for all my sins.

Now I’ve got slivers on the back of my hand so I will never knock again. And I watched you slither away from all of your mistakes, hiding everything away behind your wooden door.

I see their faces through the cracks in the floor, things I can’t ignore, but I did. And I leave through the open door left wanting more and then you lock it like you did before. You lock it like you did before.

And do you think about the things that you did? Do you believe the things, the things that you said?

Womb of The World

And stay with me, as they lay me to sleep in the womb of the world that’s ready. Cry for me, send your tears beneath if the garden of your heart get’s heavy. Oh and one day you might see my bones help build a tree. And the soil renewed from dreams and then flowers will grow from where my heart had been. So for now let’s say our peace and know you’re not alone cuz you’ll have me. You’ll have me.